I’m realizing that lots of times, it’s been me that gets hurt when I don’t know the rules. I didn’t know the rules sbout how to be sa kid in my family. And right now, I apparently don’t know the ruled of many friendships. I guess that if my family were a real family and my friends were real friends, they would make sure I knew the rules. In fact, I’m wondering if there should even be rules. I only have one rule with my friends, “please do not hurt me intentionally”. However, apparently, supposed friendships can have many kther rules. And then, i start to wonder, are those people really my friends?