MT (my therapist) texted me tonight and cancelled our session for tomorrow. I had three different reactions to that. The first was some big disappointment because I was actually looking forward to therapy now that I feel connected to MTagain and I feel like we’re on the same page again. My second reaction was dome remorse because over the weekend, when I thought one of my kids was coming down with something, I thought to myself that it would be okay if I had to miss therapy because now I feel connected to MT again and I would not be afraid of her not being there if we missed a session. I figured this was the universe trying to teach me that my thought was really true. My third reaction came a couple of hours later when I thought about a bunch of paperwork I’ve been struggling to get done and my closet that is in serious need of cleaning. I was really happy that I was going to end up with unexpected time to hopefully get those tasks done.
This is only the 2nd time in my 2 years of therapy with MT that she has cancelled a session with short notice. I find that to be absolutely amazing and comforting. However, I get really nervous when this happens because my last therapist started cancelling sessions due to health problems and it turned out she had a brain tumor. Now, I realize last therapist and MT are not the same person. But I wish that MT’s strict boundaries did not prevent her from saying why she was suddenly not able to keep an appointment.