I am feeling really resistant to going to therapy this morning. My first plan was to just go back to sleep after my wife and kids left for the day. I wasn’t going to set an alarm, knowing in all likelihood, I would sleep through at least half of my appointment. I set the alarm. I just got up again, and I have a headache. I considered calling and saying it hurts too much to come. Now, I’m writing a post instead of getting ready. Shaking my head. I feel kind of panicked at the thought of going. I could not seem to connect to my therapist last week, in both sessions. What if it happens again this week? I’ve had some flashbacks that I don’t understand. I’m not sure I want to talk about them and understand. My feelings of contentment from this weekend have faded. I feel like crying, but I have no reason. My therapist will say, well, don’t stuff the emotion. Go ahead and feel it. But, I hate emotions not attached to anything. Ugh. Okay. Off to the shower. Update later.