“I move on toward the goal to win the prize. God has appointed me to win….” (Philippians 3:14 NIRV)
MT (my therapist ) and I use the imagery of me being a warrior, fighting battles, sometimes winning and sometimes losing. I think the prize on this case is actually winning this war that I’m engaged in. One of these days (years?), I am going to be able to love me and not judge anything that I did or did not do. What happened will have just happened. I will learn that my feelings are not good or bad; that they just are. I will learn to pause before reacting to triggering circumstances. I will be who I am and that will just be. I will be.